life

so, whats up?! may peace be upon to us. almost 4 years when my last blog published. quit long isnt? hows life? a lot things hapend lately. from gadget freak, antisocial and all the social medias platform until no phone at all and deactivated all the social media. from denial of step family until i cried of losing them. from protected myself to sacrifising self to love until i realy did that and unfortunately it dont goes well. whats is this message to me realy is? im alone, sad nope it actualy in depressed level, lost hope, and almost suicide. whats is realy going on? whats did i just missed? i shud move on by now but i cant! adult is scaring me. stepping to adult age but actualy i still not reaching there yet just because im afraid to face it alone. im scared! its just weird when the younger me are too brave and just ignore all the fact that actualy will leading me to who i am now. but today im no longer that brave young girl. it feels like coward and weak and useless when im crying myself alone and hope that theres someone can calm me and hugs me.silly! adult and old is scaring me.i always blame my fate and always asking WHY ME. my negatively is killing me until my mom told me, "dont ask someone to be there for u but god. destiny, soulmates and death is in gods hand. dont end life meaningless because death is always very close to us". that point is wake me up. now, this time what im doing is i need to step one step ahead no matter how hard it will be. its hard but im sure i will get through this soon. i miss my family, my late brother and a few of  good people in mylife. 

Daily life

Wedhnesday, penat. 

September 2013

I want my family happy. Thats my wish. (: 

Love

Love is blind

zintVSkapur: Al fatihah.

zintVSkapur: Al fatihah.

Al fatihah.

Just heared that someone that telah kembali ke rahmatullah. Astagfirullah al azim. Ya allah ya tuhan ku ampuni lah sgla dosa2 ku ya allah. Sesungguhnya engkau maha mengampuni dan mengasihani hamba2mu. Kematian mengingatkan kembali peristiwa kehilangan arwah adikku mohd shahrun. Kehilangan beliau banyak mnyedarkn bahawa kehidupan duniawi shja sementara n pinjaman kpda stiap manusia. Kehidupan duniawi hanya untuk mengmpul sebanyak mana amalan untuk bekalan d akhirat nnti. Kehidupan yg kekal abadi n bagaimana nti d sana berganting kepada amalan smsa hayat. Sesungguhnya mati itu adalah benar n setiap manusia akan mnghadapi kematian. Cuma masa n waktu tidak diketahui. Semoga roh beliau n roh adikku d tmptkn d klngan org2 yg briman n d kurangkn azab kubur. Ya allah ya tuhan ku kuatkn lah iman d dadaku, jadikan lah aku anak yg solehah n jadikan aku muslimah yg solehah. Amin ya rabbil alamin.

2013

Hapy belated new year!! Missing this blog so much. Its been a while ddnt updating new blog. So busy with ma work n this n that. So, the last school generation in ma family just passing her spm with barely make her family proud with the result. Kakak so proud of u the lil sista yg cenggeng. So, most of ma friend already sucsess with their marrige with the babies that their got but me? Haha! Still waiting for the right guy to save me with the white horse. Perrgh, mcm dlm drama pulok.. Na, nonsence suda. 1.30am 14/4/13 with ma 2nd nght duty. A bit sleepy. This the 4th yawning already. Ok, need to recharge 1st. Babai

Insomnia

Insomnia is repeated difficulty in getting to sleep where taking more than 30 minutes to fall asleep, walking more than 3x a night.

plain water.

drink plenty plain water during fasting

ramadhan

its ramadhan again..:) happy fasting day muslimah n muslimin..

Tuesday Tips.

(How To Count ur Own Pulse.) 

Your Pulse and Your Target Heart Rate

What is your pulse?

Your pulse is your heart rate, or the number of times your heart beats in one minute. Pulse rates vary from person to person. Your pulse is lower when you are at rest and increases when you exercise (because more oxygen-rich blood is needed by the body when you exercise).

How to take your pulse

1. Place the tips of your index, second, and third fingers on the palm side of your other wrist, below the base of the thumb. Or, place the tips of your index and second fingers on your lower neck, on either side of your windpipe. (See the illustrations to the below)

2. Press lightly with your fingers until you feel the blood pulsing beneath your fingers. 

3. Use a watch with a second hand, or look at a clock with a second hand.

4. Count the beats you feel for 10 seconds. Multiply this number by six to get your heart rate (pulse) per minute.

Check your pulse: _______________ x 6 = ________________

                          (beats in 10 seconds)          (your pulse)

What is a normal pulse?
Age Group	Normal Heart Rate at Rest
Children (ages 6-15)	70-100 beats per minute
Adults (age 18 and over)	60-100 beats per minute

What is maximum heart rate?

The maximum heart rate is the highest your pulse rate can get. To calculate your predicted maximum heart rate, use this formula:

220 - Your Age = Predicted Maximum Heart Rate

Example: a 40-year-old's predicted maximum heart rate is 180.

Your actual maximum heart rate can be determined by a graded exercise test.

Please note that some medicines and medical conditions might affect your maximum heart rate. If you are taking medicines or have a medical condition (such as heart disease, high blood pressure, or diabetes), always ask your doctor if your maximum heart rate/target heart rate will be affected.  If so, your heart rate ranges for exercise should be prescribed by your doctor or an exercise specialist.

Target heart rate

You gain the most benefits and lessen the risks when you exercise in your target heart rate zone. Usually this is when your exercise heart rate (pulse) is 60 percent to 80 percent of your maximum heart rate. In some cases, your health care provider might decrease your target heart rate zone to begin with 50 percent.

Do not exercise above 85 percent of your maximum heart rate. This increases both cardiovascular and orthopaedic risk and does not add any extra benefit.

Always check with your health care provider before starting an exercise program. Your health care provider can help you find a program and target heart rate zone that match your needs, goals, and physical condition.

When beginning an exercise program, you might need to gradually build up to a level that is within your target heart rate zone, especially if you have not exercised regularly before. If the exercise feels too hard, slow down. You will reduce your risk of injury and enjoy the exercise more if you don't try to over-do it.

To find out if you are exercising in your target zone (between 60 percent and 80 percent of your maximum heart rate), stop exercising and check your 10-second pulse. If your pulse is below your target zone (see the chart below), increase your rate of exercise. If your pulse is above your target zone, decrease your rate of exercise.

Age	Target Heart Rate (HR) Zone (60-85%)	Predicted Maximum Heart Rate
20	120-170	200
25	117-166	195
30	114-162	190
35	111-157	185
40	108-153	180
45	105-149	175
50	102-145	170
55	99-140	165
60	96-136	160
65	93-132	155
70	90-128	150
Your actual values	Target HR	Max. HR

pray 4 our grandpa. tis morning i got a nightmare. after few minutes i call ma V after the nightmare ma untie call n told me about our grandpa admitted to A&E n was transfered to HQKK. please do pray 4 our grandpa. :( 

forgive me

dear Allah..
please forgive those who ever broke other feelings. i just wanna update tis blog after a while i cannot updating related to ma new life. its kinda bit busy but so far i still can manage it although got tis morning i encourage maself to get up from the bed cause of the patient need me. alhamdulilah.

1st, sory for the broken english. hihi. still in progress to improving it with speak n writing in english. pray for me so tat i can manage it ASAP.

2nd, feeling down with the insident tat hapened tis morning. im sory ma n the cuzzy. be tough ma darl. please dont blaming other. she just wanna be she are. accept her.

3rd, wherever we are please do remember Allah always be our side. always praise for whats we got today n sory for the wrong that we've done.

Alhamdulilah n praise to Allah coz im still breathing n can still tekan2 ma keyboard mumbling solo. last but not least, i do loved ma family tat had supported me enough n always be ma side for everythings tat i;ve done. may Allah bless our family owez. Amin.

p/s: Hapy friday people n thnx 4 reading.

entri kosong

salam kenkawan.. gua nak mintak maaf la coz da lama x update entiry gua.. maklum la.. macam biasa gua busy sikit dgn assignmnet yg berlambat + klinikal lebih2 lagi d bulan ramadhan ni yg banyak menguji keimanan kita.. hohoho.. so tamau ckp bnyk2 gua nak kongsi je ngan korunk pasal baju raya tahun ne.. ha? korunk da ada baju raya x? ptng tadi before sungkai gua servay2 kain nak buat baju tahun ne.. so, ne le aktiviti aku tadi..

haha! x kisah la yg pnting gua suka..

hurm.. ingat nak buat kurung moden plak tahun ne..

so.. d pendekkan cita.. esok nak g servay g.. nak buat kurung tuk FAREWELL PARTY sekali! ada ka ptt kurung plak.. wat to do.. GUA YANG MENURUT PERINTAH la maklumnya.. goverment o goverment.. k la.. gua pun nak chow da.. nite eberybodi, selamat berpuasa.. salam..

last day class 4er theory

n peace! last day at theory exam..

the CLASS.

2nd left on the front.. 

n.. haha! the zombies ate ur brain.. :p

Currently at bndr maju

Minum2 lu

Finally..

Finally on the phone...

cannot access FB acc

astgaaaa... pa kes pula lagi kali ne ma fb (ojay san) currently unavailable.. sedeyyy.. kena buat baru la pula kali ne.. haiskkkk..

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few step to go

salam..
so mau update luk blog me yg x seberapa ne..ari ne just finished ceramah yg berjam2 lamanya.. baru jak aply sleep out tuk this coming friday.. He will going back!!! omg2! cant wait.. i miss him damn2 much.. :) so ari ne after ceramah dtng pulok org2 kuat HEP(hal ehwal pelajar).. grrr.. lagi2 update rules yg need to be follow.. argh! + stressZ! then after 5 me,tika,manja,winnie,winda n gracelin went to bandar sandakan.. haha! Gracelin make confession that she never goes to pusat bandar sandakan cause of... dia cakap macam ne.." saya tak pernah pegi sini sebab ramai PILAK! " hahhahahahhaha! ketawanya.. almost 1/5 year suda bha she here but never going to pusat bandar.. :p but she cakap the truth bha.. praise to Allah x pernah gak la me kena d sdkn ne.. palis2 la.. well.. d pendekkan cita.. ma bro will received his DIPLOMA this saturday.. congratulation adik.. :) this  also make me sungguh2 mau hold mine certificate 2.. Insyallah.. doakan me ar! :) last.. really2 cant wait him to be here.. nite people.. thnx 4 reading.. happy tuesday.. wassalam..